Wednesday, February 26, 2020

Confiteor (Ash Wednesday)



Confiteor
Ash Wednesday (Year ABC)
26 February 2020; 12 noon and 7 p.m. Spoken Mass
With Imposition of Ashes 
Homily Delivered at Trinity Episcopal Church
Ashland, Oregon  
The Rev. Fr. Tony Hutchinson, SCP, Ph.D.

God, take away our hearts of stone and give us hearts of flesh.  Amen.

Lent is a time of admitting to ourselves and to God the truth about ourselves.  The word “confession” does not mean “say you’re sorry.”  It means to acknowledge or publicly admit something:  that’s why a public declaration of faith is called a confession, like the Westminster “Confession of Faith” or St. Augustine’s great autobiographic book in the form of a prayer, “Confessions.”   The 1662 Book of Common Prayer is very clear that “Confession” is an acknowledgement or admitting of the truth about ourselves. 

“Almighty God, Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, maker of all things, judge of all men: We acknowledge and bewail our manifold sins and wickedness, which we, from time to time, most grievously have committed, by thought, word, and deed, against thy Divine Majesty, provoking most justly thy wrath and indignation against us. We do earnestly repent, and are heartily sorry for these our misdoings; The remembrance of them is grievous unto us; The burden of them is intolerable. Have mercy upon us, Have mercy upon us, most merciful Father; For thy Son our Lord Jesus Christ's sake, Forgive us all that is past; And grant that we may ever hereafter Serve and please thee In newness of life, To the honour and glory of thy Name; Through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.”

When it says the burden of our sins is intolerable, that is in the old sense of the word:  it means they cannot be borne or carried.  This confession, which remains in Rite I in our current Prayer Book, might strike us as a bit harsh and overly dramatic in its penitential tone, but its essence is one of admitting the truth.  And we must not forget the fact that we fall short of what God intended when he made us.  1 John says:  

This is the message we have heard from him and proclaim to you, that God is light and in him there is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with him while we are walking in darkness, we lie and do not do what is true; but if we walk in the light as he himself is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus his Son cleanses us from all sin. If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he who is faithful and just will forgive us our sins and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. 10 If we say that we have not sinned, we make him a liar, and his word is not in us. (1 John 1:5-10)
In all of this, we must remember the truth expressed in the collect for Ash Wednesday:  God hates nothing God has made and forgives the sins of all who are penitent, that is, who turn back.  

The English word confession comes from the Latin Confiteor, meaning acknowledge as true.  It comes from the prefix con (with) and fateor “allow or admit.  The point is that we allow or acknowledge the truth together with someone, whether God, our community, or simply another person. 

We often miss the point when we talk about Lent as a season of “repentance,” “penitence,” and  “confession of our sins.”  We think of these terms simply as violating God’s laws or commands, and turning aside.  But sin as a concept is far broader than this legalistic view.    Most modern theologians define sin either teleologically or relationally:  something that turns us aside from what God intends when he creates us, or anything that separates us from God or others.    God loves us regardless, and so it is more a question of talking about things that in our own hearts and minds separate us from the love of God. 
  
Danish theologian Soren Kirkegaard said “Sin is: in despair not wanting to be oneself before God . . . Faith is: that the self in being itself and wanting to be itself is grounded transparently in God.”  Confession and repentance are processes that help us know who our real selves are, and make us more and more hopeful and welcoming of that truth.

Lent is a time to intentionally reconnect, both with what God intended when God made us, and with God himself.   We are told that to do this, we must be humble.  The Latin word for humble, humilis, is related to the noun for the ground, humus.  In the story of creation, the man and woman are called human because they are made from the soil, the humus: “Unto dust thou shalt return.”  So being humble means getting down to earth, close to our origin the dirt, sending down roots and getting grounded. 

For a holy Lenten fast, let us not rend our garments, but our heart:  open it to Jesus, and use these forty days to wander through our secret rooms at our leisure, seeking grounding.  

Accepting who we are, admitting or acknowledging the truth about ourselves, is the key in this grounding, in this getting close to earth, in this humility.  We are God’s creatures, whom he declared “very good” when he made us.  But we have turned aside from the beauty he saw in us when he declared us “Very good!”

If we open our hearts to Jesus, he will heal us.  He will give us strength, and the inner peace needed for the journey.  He will indeed make us anew in his own image, and bring us to his glory and joy.  

Thanks be to God.


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