Remains of a mobile home park in Talent, Oregon. photo: Brandon Swanson / OPB
Hope from the Ashes
(Proper 19A)
10:00 a.m. Said Mass Live-streamed from the Chancel
13 September 2020
The Rev. Fr. Tony Hutchinson, SCP, Ph.D.
Parish Church of Trinity Ashland (Oregon)
Genesis 50:15-21; Psalm 103:(1-7), 8-13; Romans 14:1-12; Matthew 18:21-35
God, give us hearts to feel and love,
take away our hearts of stone and give us hearts of flesh. Amen.
Ten households in our parish family
lost their homes this week to the Almeda wildfire. Between a third and a half of the parish was
evacuated, some multiple times, having to flee not only from their homes but
from their safe sheltering locales as well.
One family took refuge with friends, and when their own evacuation was
lifted and a new one was imposed in their new shelter, returned to their homes
with their sheltering hosts in tow, now hosting them. Talent and Phoenix were
largely devastated. Many of the neighborhoods totally destroyed
were among the few affordable housing options in this valley, and many of the
now homeless were already among the most vulnerable of our community, with
little or no insurance, many having to keep working during the pandemic for want
of bread. As today’s parable suggests,
in this world, the rich get richer and can afford to put on a show of
compassion, while the poor, whether stingy or compassionate, seem only to get
poorer. And now we cannot breathe. Covid-19, isolation, fear of contagion, and
now firestorms and slow suffocation—2020 has turned out to be what the Romans
called an annus horribilis: a year to
make your skin crawl. None of us are
asking any more when things might return to normal, for “normal” has been
emptied of its meaning. Our society is
riven with hatred and division, increasingly armed and tribal: where most
disasters bring communities together, and those directly affected so far have
come together beautifully, in our larger community, false accusations are flung
with impunity at those considered the enemy—the left blames the fires on proud
boys with tiki torches; the right, antifa rioters with Molotov cocktails. But
this deep schism in our common life is, perhaps, karmic payback for a caste system of privilege
and plundered wealth and power based on what family you are born into and your
imputed color. Nature itself seems to be
revolting and pushing back on us who have plundered the wealth of the earth
with little heed to its health and the sustainability of our practices. The governor said this was a once in a
hundred year event, but boy, it sure feels maybe like the new normal with
climate change caused by a whole society’s careless pursuit of wealth.
Jackson County District 5 firefighter Captain Aaron Bustard works on a
smoldering fire in a burned neighborhood in Talent, Oregon, U.S. on
September 11, 2020. /APOne parishioner asked after noon
mass on Thursday: “How could a loving God let this happen?” I
glibly asked back, “What is it that makes you think this is abnormal or
wrong? It is the very image of God left
in you at creation that tells you this is not normal, is not right, and is
wrong, wrong, wrong.” But another parishioner, one certain that her home was
lost, replied wisely, with the authority of faith in the midst of suffering, “I
have seen more love and compassion in these last three days that I had seen for
years before.” Graciously, it later
turned out her home had somehow been spared from burning to the ground.
St. Paul writes the following in 2
Corinthians:
“So we do not lose heart. Even
though our outer selves are withering away, our inner selves are being renewed
each and every day. For our current bit of suffering—so light as to be almost
nothing—is kindling in us a glory weighty beyond any comparison, because we are
looking not at what is before our eyes, but at what is hidden from our eyes;
for what can be seen passes quickly away, but what cannot be seen lasts
forever.… It is God who has given us hints
of this bright future, by giving us his Spirit as a down payment of what’s
ahead” (2 Cor. 4:16-17; 5:1-5).
Paul is not trying here to disparage
the world in which we live. Remember
that when God made the world, God saw it and said it was good indeed. Elsewhere, Paul says he sees plenty of
evidences in the world of God’s good intention and love in the world. What Paul is talking about is how things seem
when we are suffering and finding it hard to see any good before our eyes.
Paul is not trying to say that our
sufferings are not real or truly bad.
And he is not saying the world needs to be ignored. He is contrasting how things now appear with how things actually are. He is saying feel the sorrow at suffering,
but also feel the joy of the grace that God continues to show each day despite
the bad.
For Paul, the hidden “eternal weight
of glory” is actually the real thing,
while our suffering, all too clear before our eyes, is but a dim shadow that is passing away. The image in our hearts of what God has
promised, and what God is already actually accomplishing in us, drives away the
demons of hopelessness and helplessness that threaten to beat us down.
Paul tells us to contemplate the
“invisible things” which do not change instead of the “things before our eyes”
that do. For him, the ultimate
reassuring image is God’s love in suffering alongside us. Paul says he preaches only, “Christ, Christ on
the Cross”: it is because this man of
sorrows is the same as the glorious Risen Lord.
I began a silly little practice when
Covid-19 broke out: to make sure I wash
my hands long enough, each time I wash, I sing two verses of a metrical form of
Psalm 100 (to the tune Old One Hundredth):
“All people that on earth do dwell,
Sing to the Lord with gladsome
voice,
Serve him with mirth, his praise
forth tell,
Come ye before him and rejoice!
Know this: the Lord is God indeed.
We are his own, he did us make.
We are his folk, he doth us feed,
And for his sheep he doth us
take.”
I am so thankful for this
practice. It has allowed me to see a
great truth: a “mixed state” of emotion,
joy and sorrow mixed, is not simply a symptom of mental illness. It is also a gift of grace in hardship. Elena, with her Parkinson’s disease, has had
many of her emotional control systems taken from her, and sometimes she weeps,
but is not sure if it is for joy or for sorrow.
It is usually perhaps both. A
blending of joy and sorrow is perhaps the right place for a person of faith
when suffering. Psalm 100, for all its
talk of mirth and joy, was written by someone who suffered much, and yet kept
joy in seeing God’s hand at work in all things, even the suffering.
As Mister Rogers used to say, “when
bad things happen, look for the helpers.”
As Paul says, keep your eyes fixed on the eternal goodness of God even
in this current horror. As we say in the
Prayer Book funeral office, “Even at the grave, we sing, Alleluia. Alleluia.
Alleluia.”
We have been reading this last week
the Book of Job during Morning Prayer.
Its message, loud and clear is this:
Do not curse God and die. Do not
try to rationalize horror, and most definitely do not blame victims. Rather, like Job, repent in dust and ashes,
and love and trust God through it all, through it all.
In the words of two African-American
freedom songs, we must “keep our eyes on the prize,” our “hands on the plow.”
We must, simply, “hold on, hold on.” Phoenix, like the mythological bird it is
named after, will rise again from the ashes, in new life and vigor. Talent, whose name is shared by the units of
money in that parable about proper stewardship, will rebuild and prosper again
through the efforts of all who want to truly help.
In times like these, it may be hard
to see the light. But we must not resign ourselves to being beaten down, must
not “lose heart.” See God’s hand at work:
not by blaming God for the unspeakable, but by seeing the grace and
glory mingled with the sorrow and by becoming instruments of grace for
others. Strive to be one of Mister
Rogers’ “helpers.”
Don’t give up, and don’t give
in. “Come into God’s courts with
praise. Give thanks to him, and call
upon his name. For the Lord is
good. His mercy is everlasting and his
faithfulness endures from age to age.”
Amen.