Sunday, October 2, 2016

What's Expected (Proper 22C)



What’s Expected
Twentieth Sunday after Pentecost (Proper 22 Year C RCL)
18 September 2016--8:00 a.m. Said, 10:00 a.m. Sung Mass
Parish Church of Trinity, Ashland (Oregon)
The Rev. Fr. Tony Hutchinson, SCP, Ph.D.

God, give us hearts to feel and love,
take away our hearts of stone
 and give us hearts of flesh. Amen.

Last week, a member of the altar guild approached me before service and said with emotion, “I need more faith!”  “What?” I said.  “I need more faith!” She repeated.  “How so?” I replied.  She answered, “I am totally angry and tired of dealing with messes, drama, and scary stuff when I come to Church in the morning. I know I should love the homeless and be gentle and welcoming.  But when they cause problems I just can’t muster it.  I need more faith!”  

My heart went out to her.  Many of us in the parish have had to deal with “messes, drama, and scary stuff” due to people without shelter overnighting in the Church courtyard.  This good woman had been doing so admirably for months, only occasionally saying something when someone really went outside the boundaries.  But here she was, dealing with a major case of guilt and self-reproach for not “being nice” enough, for not “following Jesus” and forgiving.    All I could say was, “you have faith, and you don’t need to beat up on yourself for other people’s faults. We must keep reminding people of the rules, and if it doesn’t work, we might have to close the campus reluctantly, like all the other houses of worship in town.” 

“I need more faith.”  We all run into this, from a variety of quarters:  a feeling of being overwhelmed by demands on our time and emotional energies, and a sense of guilt and self-reproach when we don’t seem to be able to meet the requirements of what is expected of us, of what we expect of ourselves, or even muster a moderate amount of graciousness to help cover our shortfall.     

The Gospel reading for today is about this.  Jesus has just told the disciples that they need to forgive people who harm or hurt them even “seven times a day.”   The disciples respond with today’s line:  “Increase our faith!”  They are saying, “Yikes!  Forgive someone who does us wrong over and over again?  I need more faith.” 

Jesus answers,  “If you had even just a little tiny bit of faith, say the size of a little seed, then you could do impossible things!”  Elsewhere, it is “you can move mountains just by telling them to move.”  Here it is “you could tell that huge Mulberry tree over there to plant itself in the middle of the ocean and it would thrive there!” 

Jesus is being a little sarcastic here.  It sounds like he himself has had a bad day and might be saying to himself, “You need some faith here, Jesus!”  But what he means, stripped of the sarcasm, is clearly, “You already have enough faith.  Just put it into practice.” 
 
He gives a parable saying it’s all about expectations:  “Does the household staff get to rest and have dinner just because they’ve worked hard in the field all day? No.  They must first feed the Householder in proper style and only then can they take their meal and rest.  Don’t expect any better.  Do what’s expected of you, and then some, and don’t worry about getting nice thank you’s or attaboy’s or attagirl’s.  You’ve only done what was expected.”  
As most of Jesus’ edgier parables, this parable in its original setting may be a criticism of the economy and society of exploitation around him.  But in Luke’s context it means:  “Lower your expectations and you might find that just doing what’s expected of you is enough of a reward.” 
What’s expected.  It sounds like a bad joke from that torment that most of us have encountered in our professional lives, the performance evaluation.  Cartoonist Scott Adams in one “Dilbert” strip pictures Dilbert’s officemate Alice seated across from her boss.  He begins, “Alice, your performance this year ‘meets expectations.’ You get a two percent pay increase.” Alice replies, “Meets expectations? I worked eighty hours every week!” The boss replies, “Yeah ... Well, I expected that.”  Alice adds, “I earned three patents this year! The company will make millions!”  The boss: “Really? Wow.   … I mean ... I expected that too.” Alice adds, “I donated bone marrow to our biggest customer! Twice!”  To which the boss replies, “I noted that under ‘attendance problem.’”  Later, Alice is in the cafeteria, clearly sobbing. Dilbert says, “I told you the bone marrow thing would haunt you.” Another officemate opines, “I'm starting to think the time I worked through my lunch hour was for nothing.”

Jesus says, “When you have done all you were ordered, say, ‘We are worthless slaves; we have done only what was expected!’”  Sounds like Dilbert’s pointy-haired boss from hell.  “Meets expectations?” Really? 

When reading the Gospels, we must constantly remind ourselves that the historical Jesus is to us a foreigner who speaks an unintelligible language.  His life and work was sparer and harder than any of us have seen.  They make the hardships of today’s third world look gentle.  His culture and religion are alien, with values and world-views that often seem narrow, inhumane, and even bigoted.  So we must carefully interpret his words or risk getting the wrong point.

In the chapters of Luke we have been reading over the last few weeks, Jesus has told shocking stories about people receiving rewards and recompense.   The loving father of the prodigal son welcomes the disrespectful and dissipated ingrate home.  He runs out to him, embraces him, and throws a big expensive party for him, much to the annoyance of his older brother who has met the expectations of his father and culture.   The householder praises the shrewdness of the dishonest manager, who retires to a gentle life being hosted and funded by those who benefited from his departing from expectations.    The homeless wretch Lazarus, no doubt ridden with messes, drama, and scary stuff, is welcomed to Abraham’s bosom, while the wealthy man who exceeded the expectations of society must suffer in the afterlife.

The disciples may well be thinking, “If moral reprobates, crooks, and those who sponge off of others are going to be blessed by God, just think of what good people like us are going to get!” 

And then Jesus tells them to forgive, forgive, forgive:  seven times a day for repeat offenders who seem not able to change.  And with the rest of us, they say, “I need more faith.”    Jesus, in clear exasperation says, “You want more faith?  Just a tiny bit of faith would work miracles for you, if you had any.  Let me tell you about some slaves who don’t get any extra praise or reward when they simply do what is expected of them.”

Jesus is giving them a Zen koan:  a saying hard to understand, that draws forth from us a change in perceptions and attitudes.   Like most of his parables, the saying turns everything on its head, and reverses expectations.   The first will be last; the last first.  The leader must be servant of all.

He is talking about faith in a loving God, a God of grace, a God like that loving father of two wayward boys.  If you want faith, you have to have faith.  And that means faith in God.  And God destroys our petty expectations by exceeding them. 

Jesus grew up reading and quoting from the Book of Sirach, which says, “My child, if you want to serve the Lord, prepare yourself for an ordeal” (Ecclesiasticus 2:1). Ordeal—dealing with the messes, the drama, and the scary stuff—is part of the job description of serving God.  It is part of the job description of being a disciple of Jesus. 

But faith in God—faith in the living, Jesus’ expectation-overturning Abba—faith even in tiny tiny amounts makes it better.  It’s not about quantity, it’s about quality.  It’s about whether it’s real trust in that loving God. 

When we trust, when we are deeply thankful and grateful, well, we stop keeping score.  Many things that once were intolerably hard become easy.  We seem to know the right thing to say at the right time.  And we no longer have a grudge against God or anyone else.  True faith—even in tiny amounts—is like that. 

Thomas Merton wrote, “[Concern about] means and ends... is not the way to build a life of prayer.  In prayer we discover what we already have.  You start where you are, and you deepen what you already have, and you realize that you are already there.  We already have everything, but we don't know it and we don't experience it.  Everything has been given to us in Christ.  All we need is to experience what we already possess.  The trouble is, we aren't taking the time to do so.”

May we strengthen our life of prayer, and exert trust and faith—even just a little, because that is all it takes to work miracles—in that living, loving God.

Amen. 




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